I don't really do long posts because I am not good at explaining things in English... but this post is longer than usual ones.... Besides, this post might be super bullshit if you don't believe the thing. So don't bother to read to take your valuable time. For those who have time, please go ahead......
When I was in my pre-teens, I didn't think it was strange at all for me to be able to see the dead. I thought everybody could see them. I've been able to see them since I cannot remember. When I was little, I was making a conversation with my dead gradfather whom I had never seen in person since he passed away before I came to this world. My father who is not able to see the dead thought I went insane when he looked at me talking to my grandfather because all my father saw there was that I was talking alone loudly and laughed in the dark room. That's what it is. Fortunately, me being able to see them doesn't occur as frequent as it used to be. Thank God. I was able to hear their stories and got to know why they are there. Recently, I only see them every once in a while. I am not sure if I got rusty which I am actually grateful for.
When I was younger, I didn't really share this thing with friends or any body for that matter because I was once picked on badly, and they told me I was a liar after telling them what I saw and heard. That was a bad experience. Since then, I try not to share it even if the dead person I deal with sends a particular message to me.... except when I am with my mother and want to verify whether I am half-awake or not. I ask my mother if she sees the same thing as she does have the same "thing" as well. Yeah, still, to this date, my mother and I freak my father and sister out every once in a while.
Today, I had a meeting with a sales rep at work. The last time I saw anyone dead was about a month ago so it had been awhile. The dead person I saw in there was the father of the sales rep and he told me to warn his son that he would run into a car accident later that afternoon. Why? oh why would I have to do that for hiM? It was my first time to meet this sales rep. And it was an official business meeting with 10 other people in there. I am sure I didn't pay attention to the meeting while I was getting the different information that is not on the agenda. My boss thought I went to an imaginery place. It would be too freaky if I convinced him to drive super safely and not to take the very left lane for the rest of that day. I didn't wanna sound like a crazy person so I ignored his grandfather agressively talking to me during the meeting even if I could hear every single word of his. I told the sale rep to drive safely "casually" just like ending the meeting to send him to the elevator hall.
You guessed it right. This sales rep was brought into the hospital after the car accident at 4 in the afternoon. I felt very guilty when I heard the news even though on the surface in this world for normal people's terms, I didn't do anything wrong. Thankfully, the car accident was not serious. No surgery. Since I got to know that he had to have some stiches here and there and some exams, I paid a little visit. His dead father was there with him even though the sales rep didn't get a hint about it at all. I was very uncomfortable when I had to talk to him in the room because all I could think is I felt so guilty. I wanted to kill myself when I had to see his father for the second time. I didn't say it with words, but I told his father that I was truly sorry that I didn't do anything about the accident. He looked sad but I hope he forgives me that I didn't particularly send the message to his son. Though I cannot completely say I made the wrong decision there when I got the info from his father. I didn't know the sales rep at all and I didn't know his father at all. I am not defending myself. Maybe, I am but I'd like to think I will not be burnt alive as a punishment.
I guess this illustrates being able to see the dead is very tiring and bothering. I'd love to get rid of this skill that cannot be put on my resume proudly for a job interview. I drink alcohol not only because I enjoy booze. It's because it's necessary sometimes not to pay attention to what I could seet. For those who cannot see the dead, I guess being able to see the dead sounds fancy and scary at the same time. But it really isn't. Yes, I have to admit it comes very handy when I get useful life-saving information for myself. But I'd rather not have any of those if that's possible. But I like this phrase: Ignorance and incuriosity are two very soft pillows.
On a different note, the guy I've been seeing shaved his stubble off finally. He told me he did that just for me and would do anything that makes me happy. That little remark does sound scarier than being able to see the angry dead actually. I hope what he meant was not what I think it means.
Anyway, you have a fantabulous weekeend!
Poor, S-chan...you are in a no-win situation. Worse, you feel guilty because you feel responsible for not telling the sales rep the message, but I would have done the same thing. People would just think you were weird, and ironically, if you DID prevent the accident, people would be skeptical that you had anything to do with preventing it.
There are famous mediums on Japanese TV who communicate with spirits. I think you could definitely give them a run for their money, but I know you wouldn't do it for fame or fortune. There are people out there who want to communicate with their departed loved ones. I wonder if there's a positive way to use your gift.
Isn't it funny how when you are not looking for love, it seems to find you? I haven't had that experience in a while, but I'm not necessarily sure that I want to be found right now.
It sounds like a great gift to have for those of us who don't have it but I am sure it is not a great skill to have especially when you have to put your credibility and reputation on the line.
I don't think anyone could blame you for not saying anything, you did what you thought was right.
Glad to hear about the guy you are dating. Maybe he just meant he likes you :)
Reading all this at 12:09 am with the dark color in the background made me really uncomfortable... :P
Can u call back some dead people at ur own wish or do they come by as they wish?
I think u r doing right by not diving into a relationship straight away. Take ur time :)
I know you don't watch TV but you're like Melinda (Jennifer Love Hewitt) in the Ghost Whisperer. That girl always puts her reputation and sanity on the line whenever she receives messages from the beyond.
So who's this sweet, selfless guy? Happy for ya!
hello shigeki. thinking about ghosts creep me out probably because I'm imagining them to be harmful T-T . your experience is surprising also as in they foresee the future! sorry to hear about what happened but it is nice that your family understands your ability.
as for your recent guys, they all seem to move faster than you'd like! good luck!
aS LONG as they r your relatives! well thats cool but if u get to see people u dont usually know thats would be CREEPY! James Dean would be an excpetion! send him over if ever he gets your way! mmmm wich reminds me of the "exorcist" and the "exorcism of Emilt Rose" have u seen them?
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Next time, please ask for a lottery number and share with us.. :) Thank you
wow.I cannot but believe you,Shigeki..I sometimes feel so sad when I think of my grandfather who passed away for about 7 years ago.I cry with heartache and hope that he appears in this world.To see dead people might be not comfortable thing like you experience sometimes,maybe it's not that bad thing to know 'their' world ;) Anyway,I like this Halloween edition-*
What a strange, unnerving experience! Well, you can't really blame yourself; you did not ask for this. But good news about stubble-man! :-)
TK
Shigeki san, I am so sorry that I made the request of you to share your stories of seeing dead people. I thought you just saw them and not communicated with them. It saddens my heart that this ability has caused you to use alcohol to numb the senses and maybe help you to become "rusty". With television programs like The Ghost Whisperer, that Mark mentioned, makes this "thingy" seem more like a gift than a curse. It's really up to you how you want to look at it. I do appreciate your openness and do not want to make you feel you need to keep your blog light and entertaining ALL the time. I'm very happy your friend is not scratching you up!
A big O! Lane
That would be such a tiring experience. I feel so sorry for you. It's a gift, so I'm told, as is mine.
I don't see dead people but I feel the emotions of real people. It can be very exhausting at times, especially in my job.
It is really hard when I am around people who are angry or upset. They are not showing that they are but I feel their emotions so strong that it makes me physically ill.
Social gatherings are another issue, I know exactly what anyone is feeling or thinking.
Thank you so much for sharing. :-)
PS I have a number of prayer beads, I don't use them, I just like them.
Shigeki-san, this is a special gift. You must use it when you have the opportunity to do so.
P.S. Take your time with the boyfriend and see what develops. At least you won't be "raw" anymore! ;P
Fascinating story. It's a gift with strong responsibility you have.
WOW! Don't belittle this gift but be thankful. You obviously have it for a reason.
The sight is a responsibility... I hope you use it wisely.
Hi GaijinGirl,
To be honest, I think these people sending messeages to me whom I don't know at all are kinda selfish. :-( But sometimes, I hear them clearly like that. Ugh! You know I don't think I am good enough to earn money by hearing those messages as I always get distracted. :-) You have a fantabulous week!
Hi Cesar,
It could look as a gift but it doesn't look that way at all all the time actually. :-( Yup, no-stubble at all so my skin is better. :-) You have a fantabulous week!
Hi Makeurchoice,
I am sorry that this post made you uncomfy but it didn't creep you out badly at all. Well, I could call the angry ones if I wish but I don't wanna deal with them. I am not good at calling everybody unfortunately. :-( You have a fantabulous week!
Hi Mark,
I guess I try not to deal with this side of me because it's too bothering. But sometimes I do share things with others. though I dont' think I could be any psychic persons like the ones shown on the TV.... Selfless guy? hmmm.. I will see about that. You have a fantabulous week!
Hi Tiptup,
I hate to break this to you but there are some that are very harmful.... yup, I could hear about what's gonna happen in the near future from them but I don't think i need this kind of information. I'd rather be a better husband material by knowing how to cook things brilliantly. :-) You have a fantabulous week!
Hi Envy,
Well, mostly, they are not my relatives and they just show up and start telling things to me. That's so not what I want. I wonder if I visited his grave, I could see James Dean for real? :-) You have a fantabulous week!
Hi Lifebook,
I actually attempted to do that once. The result is really miserable if you know what I mean so I won't do that. :-) You have a fantabulous week!
Hi Leigh,
I am sorry about yur grandfather but I am pretty sure he is watching over you. :-) Well, I don't really like to deal with any of dead people. I'd rather deal with live hunks :-) You have a fantabulous week!
Hi T.Kevin,
I know it's a strange experience for you but since it has happened quite a few times, it's another experience for me... Yup, non-stubble man is good though I really liked his looks with the stubble. You have a fantabulous week!
Hi LaneO,
Oh, Don't be sorry about that at all! Well, some others were interested in knowing what it was like and I thought it was the perfect day to share that since it happened on the very same day. If it's too uncomfy to share (e.g. putting up the photo of me only in undies), I wouldn't do it even if I get requests. :-P That's all. I am totally okay with this thing but I need alcohol sometimes. :-) I sometimes share something too private but I don't know how to draw a line. :-) You have a fantabulous week!
Hi Maggie,
I think it's fascinating that you get to know the feelings of real people in the same place so you don't have to try to get feedback from them when you cook something. :-) Though the truth sometimmes hurts.... Wow, that's a nicer thing to have! If I want to know those people's feelings, I will have to ask the dead people around them first to get the info!! You have a fantabulou sweek!
Hi Hanuman1960,
I have no idea when is the certain appropriate opportunity to use this thing though. Well, i am not even sure how long this will last but I will see about that. :) You have a fantabulous week!
Hi Steve,
Strong responsibility... yeah... sometimes it is. I hate that. you have a fantabulous week!
HI Paul,
Do I? I guess I just got it from my mother. My mother's side of the family is very creepy. :-) You have a fantabulous week!
Hi Colin,
I try not to use it even if I see it. Does that make me a bad person? I hope not. You have a fantabulous week!
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