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Wed, 8 March 2006

This is something I drew last year but I thought this would be perfect for what I am blogging today. When I blogged about my HIV test the other day, I got some suggestions that it would be good to look for someone permanent. But I wonder if having someone permanent would be less risky to get HIV positive. I'd like to disagree if I may... If he fudges around behind my back and if I do it without a condom with this something permanent guy (FYI, I have never done bareback..), that wouldn't be necessarily safe, would it? Don't get me wrong though. I still believe in relationships. I got out of the 8 year relationship last year...surprisingly. It lasted that long... surprisingly. One of my dreams is to be able to wear the perfect wedding ring made out of platinum. This is something I drew to see how my left hand would look like with the ring. I still think I am not a marrying kind but I will see about that. I am not in a hurry. Really. I don't think this something "permanent" is going to happen anytime soon as the current job I have now makes my dream plan impossible. I cannot afford my time for myself even. However, I am not disappointed. I still have hopes. In the mean time, I am going to go online and find a new "friend" to do "nice things" together. Do I sound low? Okay, I might. But I take my responsibilities. I will be a grown up later. Not today. ;-) You have a fantabulous "hump" day.

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Very cool picture, Shigeki. I wish I could draw things that good.

If you find a "friend" that is only for the night, of course, play safe and have fun. But perhaps you meant that you are looking for a friend for a longer time, in which case I hope you find someone likeable. :)

Posted by: seekeronos at March 8, 2006 10:31 PM

So you're now the romantic type eh? :-) Well, I hope you certainly find the partner of your life. Don't let work consume you.... there's a life to live for (who I'm suppose to advice, I'm in a even sorrier state) After watching Brokeback Mountain again, I'm definitely a firm believer of living the life one deserve and be true to yourself. What Ennis/Jack had - I think it's just so special... it's hard to comprehend and to an extent...sad as well. Have a good week ahead!

Posted by: ian at March 8, 2006 11:08 PM

You are very talented! I can barely draw stick people!

In regards to your love life, just remember to "play safe"!

Have a good day sweetie!!!

Posted by: Hanuman at March 8, 2006 11:09 PM

Do nice things with me. I'm good. I'm available. I like rings.

Sincerely Desperate Paul

Posted by: Paul at March 8, 2006 11:10 PM

Canada has a quick response emergency team that we dispatch around the world to help with international crises. It's calld DART. I propose I form a team (consisting of me) and I will be flown to Japan to administer my, ahem, dart and do other, ah, interventions in your time of great need of "nice things."

Of course my BF will be forced to kill me afterward, but it is a sacrifice I will make on your behalf! :)

As I've said before, I love your sketching.

My first BF and I had "negotiated unsafe sex" (we were to be monogomous and had been tested together after three months) and he cheated on me very often and wuite regularly, I found out after the relationship ended. I most nearly killed him when I found out. That did a thing to my sense of trust...

With humping,
Steve

Posted by: steven at March 8, 2006 11:36 PM

It's been forever since I've had a HUMPED DAY, you know, one of those days where you're blissful after having been up all night having lots and lots of steamy sex and not feeling the least bit tired? I need me one of those...

I hope you reeled in a big fish and ate him up like sashimi!!!!!! Ha ha ha (pardon the punchiness...it is 2:52 and I am probably semi-manic--woo hoo!!!!!!)

Posted by: GaijinGirl at March 9, 2006 02:53 AM

...also, while the idea of finding someone and having a relationship is nice, it's not like buying a shirt or something. If we could all just find someone whenever we wanted, that'd would be nice.

Shigeki, your fan club - SO CUTE! They all want to come to Tokyo and *(#$ your brains out for you!

Posted by: Mush at March 9, 2006 02:53 AM

I agree with you. You are just as much at risk of becoming HIV positve if you are in a relationship. You never know when you or the person you are dating are going to be tempted and go cheat on each other. It happens.

Did you find a "friend" to play with? Was it good? :)

Posted by: Cesar at March 9, 2006 04:49 AM

where is the application form to be your 'friend' I am sending in mine today! ha ha

Posted by: ca va pas la tete at March 9, 2006 01:10 PM

In theory, abstinence is the best way to avoid risks. But who follows it? I guess a more realistic way is to engage in low-risk activities like holding hands! Haha.

Posted by: Kiss My Mike at March 9, 2006 10:49 PM

I'm sure many of your "friends" like your humps. Or be humped by you hehe!

Have fun Shigeki! Just remember sex isn't better (or safer) when drunk!

Posted by: Will at March 10, 2006 12:40 AM

You don't sound low at all, Shigeki. You sound sexy as hell, more so than ever, acknowledging the responsibility that goes with every hump made. Stay safe and humping, both will do you good. :-)

Posted by: Mark at March 10, 2006 01:54 AM

hi shigeki :)
be positive yaar i think less time for ur self and the memories of the last relationship is wat make u a bit uncomfortable .. when u have more time for urself n dont talk or even think about the last relationship (it does nt make anyone feel good imho ) then it looks like there is a romantic guy inside u who still believe in being monogomous n really want it to be one.
if u r in true love then u dont cheat the same goes for others if they r in true love with u then believe that they wont cheat.
sure one day u will have ur dream come true till then play safe...n have faith

Posted by: makeurchoice at March 10, 2006 05:33 AM

Hee hee, hope you enjoyed your 'nice things', Shigeki! There's no rush to find anything permanent. And anyway, if you go out searching for a long-term relationship, you will very rarely find one - these things only find you when you least expect them!!

Posted by: Tim at March 10, 2006 11:54 AM

Hi Seekeronos,

Thanks very much. It's just a scribble, anyway. :) I didn't do well in art classes in college. But I like scribbling like that some times. ;) I don't think i am loooking for some friend for a longer time as I have some already. I am looking for a "friend" who is only good for one night. :) You have a pretty weekend!

Hi Ian,

nope, not really. I could be romantic but I am looking for a temporary friend who can fulfill my needs. But that doesn't mean I am looking for him all the time. I think I am going to survive but I think I need some rest. I am going to apply for some time off next week. It's been really crazy.... You have a gorgeous weekend!

Hi Hanuman,

Nope. Not really. I just like to draw things from time to time. I didn't do well in art classes. really. Oh yeah, I try to play safe as always. yay. You have a fantabulous weekend!

Hi Paul,

hahaha. Well, I am not a relationship oriented type like the one you are looking for but we can still have fun together, no? :-) You are not desperate. You are fantabulous! You have a fantabulous weekend!

Hi Steve,

Oh, that's really nice. :-) I like your system very much. :-) Come on, dart! It's time! Unfortunately, the last boyfriend is HIV positive so there was no way I could have unprotected sex at all but I am pretty sure he cheated on me but since I don't know about it, I am totally cool. :-) But I totally understand how frustrated you were when you found that out. I am sorry. Anyhow, you have a marvelous weekend!

Hi GaijinGirl,

hahahaha. Thanks for sharing, sweetie. Well, I kinda like endless sex night but I guess I haven't had that recently. But then, I am still alive. That's micracle :-) I did enjoy the other night and it was fantabulous as it had been awhile. ;-) yay. You have a pretty weekend!

Hi Mush,

Yup. You totally said it. that's right. it's not something we can get immediately when we wanted. So I guess I am waiting? hahaha. I guess not. My fan club? hahaha. I am very honored :-) You have a splendid weekend!

Hi Cesar,

Thanks for seeing my point. :-) OH yes, i did find a friend to play with. It was fantastic. Though he didn't last long. But it was fantabulous anyway. :-) You have a pleasant weekend!

Hi Ca va pas la tete,

hahaha. welll, you don't need an application form to fill out. You just be there at this sleazy place. that's all. :-) You have a good weekend!

Hi Kiss My Mike,

like holding hands? I think I am going to pass that. I guess I was too excited when I was the third grader or something. ;-) ohhh good old days. But I do not need to know how long ago it was. :-) You have a fabulous weekend!

Hi Will,

I am pretty sure we all like sex at one point but we don't really say it frequently. (Well, except at the sexaholic workshops). Thanks very much and I will remember I won't be too boozed. :-) You have a pretty weekend!

Hi Mark,

Well, I can be really low sometimes. :-) But i am glad you didn't find I sounded low. :-) Yup. responsibility and taking care of oneself are the highest priority . It's tempting but I still follow the rule. :-) You have a gorgeous weekend!

Hi Makeyourchoice,

Thanks very much for the link. Well, I am not sure though. Some people practice open relationships, you know. I am pertty sure my ex did follow that thing and so was I. But it doesn't mean I didn't love him enough. It's kinda hard to say in words. But I hope I can find my true love before I die. :-) You have a good weekend!

Hi Tim,

Oh yeah, I did enjoy those things :-) Well, there was this austrian guy the other day last year that he was exclusively looking for a relationship while I wasn't (am not now either). You are totally right. It comes when I least expect it. But I passed it. :-) You have a wonderful weekend!

Posted by: Shigeki at March 10, 2006 10:19 PM

shigeki- we all take that risk when we settle down with one person (man or woman). After all, it's hard to produce children when using a condom :-) I wouldn't worry about hurrying into a relationship. I didn't settle down until I was 35, and after my divorice I was able to find someone at the ripe old age of 48.

Posted by: Gregg at March 12, 2006 07:31 AM

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