October 2005 Archives

PUMPKIN DAY!

By Shigeki on October 31, 2005 10:22 PM | 11 Comments

I wish there was a big halloween thingy here in Japan. But nope. I am wearing a usual suit with nothing stuck in my ears here at work. I am heading home now. I couldn't take too much time on this so This is just a scribble. It's stupid and this is something I don't particularly dream of but I wrote it for some reason.... maybe, I am stressed at work ..... Anyway..... Happy Halloween!

Secret.

By Shigeki on October 30, 2005 10:39 PM | 6 Comments

Things haven't been the same Since you came into my life You found a way to touch my soul And I'm never, ever, ever gonna let it go
My gay friends go "Really?" but my favorite song of Madonna is Secret as always. I haven't found the guy whom I can share the deepest secret with though. Anyway, it's a work Sunday. Oh well. I think I drank too much last night after I got out, too. But I didn't loose my memory last night at least. :-) I drink like fish but I barely get a hang over. My head didnt hurt at all when I got up this morning as usual. Some might be interested why? Well, my liver is designed that way? It's actually more than that. I do a little thing not to get a hang over in the following morning. It's simple and effective. When I get home after getting boozed a lot, I take one batch of Amino Acid. 3000mg. The photo you see is the sports drink which contains a lot of Amino Acid. This is usually sold for peple who want to burn their fat during exercises. Before you exercise, drink this and you burn lots of fat!!! seriously. You can notice the difference in 10 mins. You sweat a lot more! But I get this when I am extremely drunk before I go to bed. I hear this helps your liver dissolve alcohol. When I get up next day, I feel so rested and well. I don't have a headache after 2 bottles of wine, either. Without it, I might get a headache.. Now, it's a liver resting day today so I am not gonna drink any alcohol. But I cannot live without amino acid not because I want to gain muscles. I just don't want any hang over. :-) If you suffer from the next day headache, try Amino Acid! happy drinking and you have a fantabulous week!

Not really organized....

By Shigeki on October 29, 2005 8:53 PM | 5 Comments

So, it's Saturday. I got majorly drunk last night (3 glasses of Shochu which is a clear distilled liquor, a half bottle of Champagne, several glasses of wine... I don't remember the rest...) When I got up this morning, I realized I went to his place instead of going back to mine. Did we do the thing in bed?? I really don't remember... I rarely forget things when I am drunk but..... I attacked the non-friend of mine, the Eastern European, verbally. That was not nice of me. Howevver, I think it was a fun night as my stomach hurts from muscular pain which was I assume caused by frequent laughs. Now, I am here at work. Oh fudging well... I don't have anything interesting to report, I thought I'd upload this. The photo is the computer display of mine in the office. I have several terminal services (It's like you can manipulate servers virtually from your own PC), and other applications. If you click the photo, you get to see what I have on my desktop. I guess some might be interested in seeing this as a voyerism part of you would interest you. Unfortunately, I don't have anything naughty as this is a work PC. :-) I create an original wallpaper every month but that's about it. It would be interesting to see everybody's desktop :-) Better yet, everybody's Bookmarks. :-) Anyway, you have a happy weekend! So will I when I get out of here!

Soy Saucy?

By Shigeki on October 28, 2005 1:31 PM | 10 Comments

What's Cold Stone Creamery?? I've never had them before.... They launch their stores here in Japan according to the article I just read. Are they any good? Anyway, I think KFC is the second favorite junk food place for me. My first choice would be MOS Burger which is a Japanese junk food place. They are so tastey. I know they are still Junk food but... Whenever you come over here to Japan, you should try MOS, please. So, this is the second day of the month to allow myself to eat greasy lunch. Today, KFC. Baby. Since I will have to go to this meeting right after lunch, I decided to make it to go and had lunch here in my office. While eating it, I read an article about Avian Flu H5N2 influenza virus on Newsweek.... While eating chicken... I know there is relatively no risk to get infected through cooked chicken but still... It's scary that the outbreak is DEFINITELY going to happen according to WHO, and almost a half of infected people would die... I hope smart people are working very hard to produce the vaccine. But it's very unlikely they will come up with an efficient vaccine as the virus itself constantly changes.... Let's hope we have several more years until the outbreak....

Continue reading Soy Saucy?.

Intoxicating Smell.

By Shigeki on October 27, 2005 10:11 PM | 11 Comments

Little break right now.... So, I am here at the library and try to do things I am supposed to do. I used to come to the library quite a lot when I was a high school student as Internet was not widely available back then, this was a great place to get info about "homo" and all the things I couldn't really ask my parents and priests. Is it just me? I find a library extremely naughty. The smell of books is intoxicating and the unusual quiet in the middle of Tokyo is very uncommon. And, you get to pass by cute guys in the hallway by giving a weird unusual subtle but not obvious cruising look. I get slightly hornier when I am here. Okay,, so that's given. Okay, I am officially a weirdo. Anyway, my brain is full and it's my break now.... Everybody is entitled to dream dreams. They can be bizarre but that's so alright, sin't it? Some dreams I currently have are...
1. I so want to be so cool ~~and pretty~~ like Sun from TV Show Lost.
2. I want world peace.
3. I want to be able to read "The little prince" in French.
4. I want to become.....???
I've been sacrificing my valuable work out time for the dream #4. I might get fatter but that's not my concern....at the moment. It will be another three weeks so it's too soon to tell the details but I shall report when I am done with all this. It's hard to study something when you are not a college dude anymore. How was I able to manage college assignments, clubbing, getting drunk a lot, and ridiculous meaningless sex, and volunteering?? I have no idea. Happy library curising if you can get to do that! :-) Okay, getting back to nerdy time.

Cleaning from the within

By Shigeki on October 26, 2005 11:50 PM | 9 Comments

Sadly, we do not have our local version of Men's Health even though we have a Japanese edition of GQ. You know it's important for many gay people to read (a.k.a. watch) Men's Health Magazine ultimately. However, we have an alternative called "Tarzan". As it's not Men's Health, it doesn't have a lot of photos of half naked guys with artificially developed muscles. It's less gay even though they have nice half naked guys photos once in a while. This magazine focuses on muscle development, how to eat things right, and body maintenance inlcuding mental health. And the cover model for this week is a Japanese actor, "Masahiro Motoki". He used to be in one of the major idol groups back in 80s. But he is now a brilliant actor. ~~I am sure he doesn't wanna sing as it was so bad.~~ I think he is one of the sexiest guys I so loooove. Now, he is 40 years old. He is the same age as Aaron Kwok For a better comparison, this guy is 40 years old, too.This week's edition (it's issued bi-weekly) is about Risk Manamgenet to your body and mind One of the articles says it's very important to keep stress level minimal once you are 30. I am 30. Now, according to the self assessment, my stress level is pretty high. I wouldn't look this young when I am 40 if I keep living like this. I have completely admitted that I age like everybody else. That part doesn't bother me. But how I age is an important part. Now, my main goal by the end of this year is to keep my stress level low. Some things have to change. Iit's very important to age gracefully. I will cut back my alcohol consumption in half for a starter. I am not sure if it's doable but I will see. Wow, that's a big challenge....Don't let yourself get too fatigued and live happily! Happy wednesday!

Straight guys do, too

By Shigeki on October 25, 2005 11:58 PM | 7 Comments

It's a payday today. Unlike somebody, I don't really get a lot. It's just another payday. A half of it goes to apartment rent, groceries, parking lot fee, cell phone bills, internet, blah blah blah. The other half of it directly goes to savings. Nothing exciting. However, I got some extra money because I worked too much last month. I decided to leave work earlier (well, I had to) and picked up these naughty mushrooms I mentioned before as I wanted to feel "luxurious" temporarily. 4 Matsutake mushrooms in a box cost 20,000 yen = US $ 173.64 = 144.72 Euros. I know they are ridiculously expensive but they are only available in autumn, and they are supposed to offer the taste of autumn. I could eat 'em all by myself but since I wanted to share these, I went to my parents'. We had a traditional autumn dinner today. They were very tastey. You see the sliced mushroom exactly looks like a circumcised male thingy. But I don't go Hey dad, look. I am giving my head to this. or anything while I eat them. We don't really say things like that as they don't really ring the bells right away. At least, we pretend not to notice even if the shape of the mushroom reminds me (us) of something or whatever. How weird they may look, they are still the taste of autumn. It's very autumn to have these. The ones I picked up had very nice aroma. However, I had to leave my parents' right away to watch Japan Series. Tigers lost again. I think it's officially over. Damn it. I am grumpy but life goes on.... Maybe, next year.. You have a pleasant Tuesday/Wednesday!

I am not contagious

By Shigeki on October 24, 2005 9:05 PM | 8 Comments

If you see people wearing surgical looking masks while you walk outside, please do not panic! Don't assume there is plague going on here in Japan. I didn't find it weird until a friend of mine who visited Tokyo told me this. Don't worry there is no plague or whatsoever. You especially see some of us wearing them in winter or in the early spring. People with sore throats wear them in order to keep their throat and nose moisturized as much as they could in order not to let them dry up. When you have a sore throat from a cold, it's better (or believed to be better) to keep respiratory system moisturized. If you wear a mask, your own moisturized breath will stay between a mask and a mouth/ a nose. That way, your throat and nose won't stay dry even if it's very dry outside. I have a sore throat which is getting actually much better, but since it's very dry here in this office, I decided to wear one of those not to get worse than I already am. It does work. Since I don't like to keep my throat dry, I usually wear one of those during the flight, too. Please do not freak out if I wear one of those onboard. I am not having an unknown contageious disease or anything. This is what we do here in Japan. It's weird but it works. It's as important as it is to keep your skin hydrated to look younger. (I secretly hide a moisturizer in my office drawer) I am almost over it but I still have this discomfort deep in my throat. Please make sure you stay hydrated and don't catch a cold! It's not pleasant. :-) Have a happy week, everybody!

Being a little Straight.

By Shigeki on October 23, 2005 10:24 PM | 5 Comments

I'd never seen this blue for the last 2 weeks. I think it's been awhile since we ever got the typical autumn blue sky. How beautiful. I hope it will stay this way for the rest of this autumn. We have had way too many rainy days. I've been having this sore throat and it's getting better but it still hurts so I decided not to do anything outside as I wanted to get better sooner. I cancelled to go to work this morning as I could have it done tomorrow if I really work hard. Tonight was the second day for Japan Series. I didn't know Lotte was this strong and well organized... Hanshin Tigers lost again but the way they lost was really bizarre. 10-0. I was watching it alone, and the popcorn is all over the floor as I tossed it from my anger. Man, this is not a great way to spend Sunday evening. Now, I am off to cleaning the floor for this mess. Just come to think of it, when I stay home and do nothing outside, I don't really care what I wear... I am wearing this t-shirt and trunks. That's all. It's so straight. I thought I'd make myself pretty but I guess I didn't really pay attention to it. I feel like a striaght college dude who dosn't care about his 5 o'clock shadow.... This ain't good..I will have to make sure I make myself decent tomorrow before I go to work... and Please, please let Tigers win.

Cruising Tokyo

By Shigeki on October 22, 2005 11:36 PM | 4 Comments

I worked this morning even it's Saturday. But I am not sad. I was able to make myself useful anyway. I had to have things done by noon because I planned to have lunch with the guy I've been seeing for some time. I tried work real hard to finish everything before noon. Anyway, I ran to the place we were supposed to meet up. I guess we are not lucky. Every time I see him, it rains. We did this usual routine to cruise Tokyo Bay. I've never dated a guy who owns a boat before so it's very new and nice. I guess autumn makes time perfect for cuddling at where sea breezes are present as it is getting colder. But I must wonder how much money he spent on his boat and licenses though.... He suggested to go to his place for early dinner. Well, I had a plan. A plan to watch Japan series baseball game. Even though I am a fag, I love watchcing baseball games with a beer in my hand. I am a big fan of "Hanshin Tigers". So I am pretty sure the evening wasn't quite far from being romantic. But I couldn't miss this. So I basically went to his place and turned the TV on and started watching the game. Please do not kiss me or do anything romantic while I watch the game. It's VERY DISTURBING. Even if the most perfect guy on this planet does sexual things to me while watching it, I'd still refuse. It's Japan Series, baby. The worst pitcher was there!!! We all knew he would not do anything good for Tigers. As a result, Tigers lost. Damn it. I even yelled at the TV even though I was supposed to act pretty and innocent in front of this guy. Okay, I think I lost my temper in front of TV and a gorgeous guy with a boat. I think I am going to watch the next game alone..... But we did have sex afterwards with this anger. The anger made me do .... you know. :-) Happy Saturday! and GO TIGERS! Damn it.

Zen Moment

By Shigeki on October 21, 2005 9:30 PM | 8 Comments

Little Treat

By Shigeki on October 20, 2005 11:59 PM | 12 Comments

Something definitely changed. I stopped working out awhile ago because I couldn't afford my time for it. I still run but don't do sit-ups any more... I feel guilty? yeah, kinda. Since my activity for a day has dramatically decreased, I feel a little heavier.. I measured my weight for the first time in three weeks. I gained 3 kilos = 6.6 pounds... the 29 inch pants are now little tight but like many people, I am in denial and keep telling myself I can still wear them. I am not ready to go up to 30 inch. nope. However, since I have to work late tonight, I grabbed something sinful for dessert. Haagen Dazs, Limited Edition. Custard Pudding. If you click the photo, you will see what's in it. The best part of this ice cream is that it's got very thick caramel sauce and it tastes heavenly good. I am not sure how many calories it's got but I am not going to find out. The idea of how much fat it's got and all would totally ruin the delish moment anyway. I will worry about it later. It's just DAMN good. I think it's the next best thing to sex. Really. I am still at work and I think I will run back home to burn extra calories I got form this. I know I am going to have to start exercising like I used to when the crazy life ends. I am not ready to buy new pants anyways... :-P But it's very necessary for each of us to treat yourself like this. I hope you treat yourself to something good when you are exhausted. You have a happy Thursday or Friday!

unsafe sex

By Shigeki on October 19, 2005 11:27 PM | 17 Comments

I got a call this afternoon from this guy I've been seeing for some time. He wanted to have some "fun". Well, I had tons of stuff to do at work but I decided to leave today as I will have to work a lot tomorrow anyway. When we talk about safe sex, we have to make sure that we are safe, right? I thought I was being safe all the time.... When you are in the middle of "Sweaty actitivity" with a guy in bed and an earthquake hits, what would you do? Especially when you are very close to "climax"? This evening, a strong earthquake hit the Eastern part of Japan including Tokyo. According to the news, it was pretty big. I think this is the second time we had an earthquake this week? The problem was I was so close to....ahem...the end while the earthquake was hitting. For about 0.03 seconds, I debated whether I should have kept going or stopped. But I went on. um... I was on top...(blush).. and tried not to care about the earthquake but the guy was like "Are you sure we should go on?" HELL YEAH and the guy said "OOHHH!" I thought I was pretty good to him... I was wrong. He said that because of something happened to me. Within a second, I blacked out. The clock on the wall hit my head HARD. The one in the photo. I mean this clock is kinda big. Today's lesson, "don't underestimate the earthquake". I didn't bleed but have this huge bump and it still hurts. If we would have waited, we could have picked up where we left off and took care of it... I guess I am not lucky in this arena this year. The guy kept laughing but it's painful.... I mean what are chances??? For the next time when an earthquake hits in the middle of "something", I will make sure I will stop and observe. So should you. (T_T) Have a pleasant Wednesday and BE SAFE

Under the ground.

By Shigeki on October 18, 2005 11:59 PM | 10 Comments

I'd been commuting by taxi but I decided to commute by subway from this week. It costs me 1800 YEN = U.S. $ 15.67 = 13.00 Euros for the roundtrip by taxi while it only costs 320 YEN = U.S. $ 2.78 = 2.31 Euros by subway for the round trip. Which means I'd save 37000 Yen = U.S. $ 322.12 = 276.54 Euros a month if I work 25 days in one month. Wow, I just calculated it and that's a lot of saving. Going to work by taxi only takes 5 mins and it takes about 20 minutes from my home to work by subway. that's a drawback but I can leave home earlier. Some friends of mine and other visitors to work from the States sometimes ask me about what they heard about, horrible commuting in Tokyo like THIS. Yes, there are some lines that can literally kill you (quite exaggerating but close enough) during rush hours. Station staff try to push people in and there is a temporary work job to do so at some subway stations. However, I live in the middle of Tokyo and don't have to deal with any of it as many lines packed with people usually come from the suburb areas of Tokyo into the city. The subway line I take is as you see in the photo. I was the only one in the car this morning. Now, as for what I usually do while I am in there..., I don't do anything. It's too short to read a book. And I don't listen to music because I want to clear my head and think of something unimportant that is completely unrelated to work stuff. I think this little commuting time is a quiet zen-like moment for me along with train steel industrial like noise... which can be really masculine and bluecollar. :-) I think I don't mind taking the subway for work as long as I can leave home earlier. You have a great Tuesday! or Wednesday!

Rainy Monday but happy.

By Shigeki on October 17, 2005 8:54 PM | 10 Comments

One of my colleagues brought her new iPod nano. I tried to act cool and said "cute". But I am green with envy. I came to the final conclusion on that one... okay, chill... chill... Anyway, I feel like being in Seattle again. It's been raining a lot lately. Very wet and chilly. A typical autumn day in Tokyo should be very clear and dry with mild brisk breezes...if I remember it right. If the weather is unusual like this, we always blame weird unusualness on global warming. I wish one of the weather forecast people would say "It will be unusually rainy tomorrow. Please try to plant one tree, tomorow. Back to you, John." or something.. My point is it's not obvious that everyday unusual weather is linked to global warming. At least, people around me don't feel it's critical including myself. That's what I wanted to say instead of being a fake advocate for environment. :-) Other than that, things have been good even though I wet my pants again this morning. I really have to change the way I wash my hands. On a different note, I am horny as hell. It's been awhile since I am "this" horny. Since my assignment for today is very complete way faster than I expected, I decided to leave work. It's been awhile since I left work before 9p.m. Now, I will be taking care of this with a "friend". That's about it! I hope you have a pleasant day! And don't work/study too much! Play HARD Ta-ta-

Time goes by so fast

By Shigeki on October 16, 2005 7:40 PM | 9 Comments

Time goes by so slowly... Time goes by so slowly......Not if I am working on Sunday... As I decided not to work yesterday to have fun, I am here at work still. That's quite alright as I could use some extra money. Working on Sundays can be never fun at all. However, Will (a humorous guy from Malaysia who is going to be a rich pilot anytime soon and ~~I am glad that I got to know him FOR THAT~~. ) got me an opportunity to listen to Madonna's new single, Hung Up. I am loving it. It's intoxicating. I so don't wanna be a cliche but I like some of her songs very much. Why are many fags like myself fond of her music? Is there something to do with genetics? anyway, her song totally made my miserable rainy day easier. Thanks Will! I got a call from a friend of mine to have lunch near my work. Since I don't want to be a robot again, I decided to take one hour break and went to this Mexican Restaurant. I mean I love how Mexican tastes. (oh, that sounds so naughty). Especially when I can have Corona Beer! (I know I shouldn't have but I did. :-) But when I feel below par and eat Mexican food, my tummy feels funny afterwards. It has happened today... I had to go to the restroom and "make" 5 times in the afternoon.. I am better now but why does this do that? I am not compatible with passionate Latin thingies? I hope not... So whenever friends select "Mexican", I get nervous... This doesn't happen to me with any other food but Mexican.... huh... It's too pity as they are delish... sob. Anyway, I am feeling much better mentally, physically even though we had an earthquake which was moderate as usual. You have a fantabulous new week even if the weather isn't great!

Back to human.

By Shigeki on October 15, 2005 11:18 PM | 4 Comments

I've been working too much. Working for 15-17 hours a day. Mostly sitting in front of computers or servers. Sure, I've been able to carry on conversations at work. I didn't think there was nothing wrong with me. The only thing I was suffering from is lack of sleep. Thinking of whom to fire, how to deliver the news... all that stressful thingy made me put in an awkward place. I was supposed to work today but I decided not to as I was tired. So I met a friend of mine to have lunch and walked around in the most familiar discrict of Tokyo, Shinjuku. I didn't even realize dealing with computers for a long time would do something crazy on myself until I started talking to friends. .... I thought everything was alright. It had been awhile since I talked to somebody who is not worked related. The problem was that it was damn hard to come up with certain words to describe things. I mean I didn't know how to express things I wanted to say. I had to pause for awhile to remember how to say them. I thought I became anomia... I was less emotional and was like a robot... However, a frined of mine was very patient to wait for me to finish sentences. I could get back on track and came up with appropriate words. Wow. It was very shocking and the most interesting impact I had never experienced. I learnt it by myself that personal interactions are very important. Thank God, I am back to human life. I had to make sure I am able to carry on conversations by calling some friends after.. Don't spend too much on a computer! I now understand why weekends /time offs are important. Now, for the first time this week, I am feeling the invincible drowsiness... I am happy. :-) Please, please to have a fantabulous weekend for yourself. :-)

Where my money is...

By Shigeki on October 14, 2005 10:50 PM | 13 Comments

My life is very much about work. In other words, my blog is getting lamer than ever. My brain's too tired so I can't come up with anything new to post. I slept for 3 hours from 3a.m. on Thursday, yesterday. That was the only time I slept for this week. So I only slept 3 hours for the last 6 days. I went to see a doctor earlier today and she prescribed some drugs. I am hoping I will be able to get back on track... The interesting thing is that I don't feel tired and don't fall asleep at all. That's plain weird. Okay, I've done my bag awhile ago. I thought I'd do it again as I have a different bag. However it's very, you know..., queer and snobby. So I thought I'd do my wallet instead. I took everything out of it and realized I have nothing interesting or unusual. click the photo to see what I have in my wallet now if you happen to care. :-) By the way, I don't do cliche, having a condom in it. :-P Because I don't want a condom circle mark on my fabulous leather wallet. You think I have too much money in my wallet but it's not unusual to have this much in cash here in Japan. When I read a guide book for L.A. or some other foreign cities, they always say "Don't bring too much cash!" It's safe to have much cash here? I don't know... Anyway, I hope your thing has been great and you have a fantabulous weekend!

Pretty, cute, and adorable.

By Shigeki on October 13, 2005 4:27 PM | 9 Comments

He designed my mobile phone. okay, that's not totally true. Let me rephrase it. He designed the phone I bought. It's been almost a year since I bought this. But it never gets old. It's always pretty and cool. I am loving this... I can check hotmail.com e-mail with this at 144kbps which isn't bad at all. This phone even has a camera built in. I rarely use it as it is only 330K pix like a primitive digi-cam but it's useful when I don't have my digi-cam with me. I admire the designer of this nice gadget, Marc Newson He has lived in Tokyo before even! He has designed so many things and has this "cuteness" quality in every his work. He is an Australian. I have never heard him saying things as I don't own a TV... But I find this slight "Keanu Reeves quality" in him. Do you? I hope he sounds cute. I don't really go ga-ga- on him ~~as his hair is thinning...and he could look freaky if he changes in a bad waye~~ but I like him anyway. He even designed the whole airplane including interiors. I have no idea why he can keep coming up with incredible creative designs. I really admire people who can be brilliantly creative this much. When I am about to see his new design, it is like the time you feel right before opening a birthday present or something. To be honest, I am hoping he could design something low profile like "condoms". I know they are cheap but I want something prettier than Benneton's. Not that I have an opportunity to use one of these any day soon (T_T) I am going back to work... You have a fantabulous Thursday!

A crazy pathetic geek.

By Shigeki on October 12, 2005 9:14 PM | 10 Comments

I added a link to Kris from Tokyo, Japan. (well, it's not really the city of Tokyo per se as it takes more than an hour to get there from my home. No offense.) He is another geek working at one of U.S. military bases. There is a burger king there while there is none in Tokyo :-)

These are the servers A bigger version of a computer that hosts network resources like files, printers, whatever. I've been working for the last 10 days on these. Thankfully, I didn't have to install OS and configure basics as they are System Administrators' thing. I installed additional software and made some dull VBScripts the thing that automates repetitive tedious tasks to do their job. What they do is they act as a police officer. They sneak into employees' computers and collect designated data to analyze if there are any suspicious activities operated... Okay, I am not here to talk about geeky stuff. I've spent most of my time in this dry chilly server room last week and this week. I wasn't allowed to access them remotely... The most scary thing is that they emit a small amount of electromagnetic waves... It's not great to keep sitting in front of them for hours as the skin gets damaged. . I don't have to look older than I do. I tend to speak to myself or dance like a fool while waiting for something to be done. Are they some symptoms associated with that? I even sang I want your sex loudly.... My brain may be fried by now... But I felt good. :-) I am so cliche.... However I am glad no one was around. :-) I want your sex!! CCCCCCCcccmon!! wow, that's so gay. Happy hump day!!

Mememememememe

By Shigeki on October 12, 2005 4:16 AM | 9 Comments

I can't sleep.... I have no idea why. It's been more than what? 60 hours or so.... I can't sleep.....So to kill my time, here it is. I got tagged by ~~evil~~Gregg from Boston, ~~Massachuss~~MA, U.S.A. It's been awhile since I got tagged so I thought I'd give this a try. Besides, I admire him. And sadly he is straight. Here are the rules to the tag.
1. Delve into your blog archive.
2. Find your 23rd post (or closest to).
3. Find the fifth sentence (or closest to).
4. Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions. Ponder it for meaning, subtext or hidden agendas.
5. Tag five people to do the same.

I paid a little visit to my grandmother with my baked apple cake.

Does it have to be this???? There is no hidden agenda or whatsoever. The only cake I can bake is simple and easy one. Apple cake. It's actually really great. Some friends of mine love it. But it's too simple and this is not the cake you can see at a cool patisserie. I go straight to a cool patisserie to pick up something more sophisticated. It's not worth trying to make something fabulous as it won't be fabulous by amatures. Really. I've learnt it in a hard way. Well, as for taggig, if you feel like it, please do. If you don't, that's very okay that you don't ! It's not required really. Will, AJ, Fashmagslag, Mark, and GaijinGirl.
I am going to get some more warm milk. I will post another one as usual later today at work. You guys sleep well for me!

Pretty in Pink

By Shigeki on October 11, 2005 10:08 PM | 7 Comments

Can you believe Andrew McCarthy is 42 years old?..... Anyway, I couldn't sleep at all today. I stopped working out three days ago. That is why. I still run but that's about it. My life is getting shitter than ever and I guess I have to work more than I did last week. I have personal projects set up in my private life but I am not sure if any of them can be complete by the end of this year. It's been gloomy for God knows how long here in Tokyo. People get unhappy due to the weather. But I like gloomy days. When you get up in the early morning and look at the outside, you see this beautiful soft blue light that you cannot really see when it's sunny. When it's a late morning, you can no longer see that soft blue light because of too much sunshine coming through clouds. This blue light makes an early coffee time perfect. Every building I see out there is slightly dyed blue. This is the only time I can really relax even though there are too many devastating articles on the newspapers... I was reading one of newspapers at 7 in the morning while having a perfect ridiculously expensive americano at the cafe. It was a perfect quiet moment before I came to work until..... I spilled coffee on my chest. Now I am wearing a spare shirt I had in my desk drawer and it's pink... very pink... why did I store this shirt instead of a blue masculine preppy looking one? An open collar is so gay already so I decided to wear a tie with it. Light soft blue tie. Okay, I cannot stop being a queer. But I will have to make ABSOLUTELY sure I don't walk pigeon-toed... Not that I do it regularly but this shirt makes me do so unconsciously... I have that blood in me.

Sports Day

By Shigeki on October 10, 2005 2:24 PM | 11 Comments

It's Sports Day here in Japan. A national holiday. 41 years ago, Tokyo Olympics games were held. Anyway, I didn't do anything atheletic today as I had a major hangover this morning. I did something fun yesterday and couldn't update the blog. I think this is the very first time to miss posting. But that's alright. I dated this guy and it was fantabulous. He owns a cruising boat and did Tokyo bay cruising. The weather was not pleasant but it was really good. After that, no equipment involved in bed. Thank God! And I am here to prepare for this little dinner party for 20 persons... I wanted to try something middle eastern. I love tabouli But we don't have that here much... It's not common... So I went to this supermarket for expats ~~who don't speak Japanese at all~~ and western people as they have western ingredients like Turkey, canned red beets (ew), etc that are not available at a usual supermarket. I picked up this Tabouli instant mix and exactly followed the instructions on the box. Now, it smells like bad urinals in the bathroom at the rest area on the highway.... I am supposed to cool this down and serve it cold but I am worried.... this is not something I smelled when I had Tabouli... should I have made it from scratch??? Well, if it doesn't taste good, I will just toss it.... I think I am going to a middle easter cooking class by the end of this year... I hate cooking....But I want to learn middle eastern dishes. They would come handy, really. You have a great Monday!

aroma of autumn

By Shigeki on October 8, 2005 11:59 PM | 6 Comments

If I post 2 flower photos in a row, I may sound like a flower person which is not totally true as I can easily kill them.... I had to attend this wedding for a friend of mine. She got married. I am so single. They look so happy together. I am envious. According to the original plan I made in my early 20s, I'd be this significant other for this great guy by the time I became 28. I am so behind. (T_T) Anyway, it was so great that this friend of mine went for the higher standard of the wedding meaning expensive champagnes. I think it had been awhile since I had Dom Perignon Rosé last time. I mean I am not an expensive guy so I am fine with less expensive Moët & Chandon's champagnes but it was totally great to have it. This friend of mine who got married is not really close so I just went there along with other friends. I basically talked with friends during the whole party with expensive champagnes. When drinks are this expensive and free, I am happy. (^_^)V On my way back, I walked back home to sober up. I smelled sweet olive trees. (Osmanthus fragrans). We call them Kinmokusei. Sweet olive doesn't sound right to me as it looks different. The thing we have here has orange flowers just like you see in the photo. Anyway, this smell is very nice and very autumn. It was little warm today but the autumn is definitely here after looking at them. However, I realized these great aromatic flowers didn't go great with my alcoholic breath....Well, I don't really notice it but a straight jock friend of mine told me so... Oh well. Happy Saturday!

NOT THE WEEKEND

By Shigeki on October 7, 2005 11:30 PM | 9 Comments

It's Friday. It's the beginning of the weekend. It's a fantabulous night! OH YAY! nope...not really... I am still here at work. Do I curse my boss?? nope. not really. I am here by my choice. My director bought me these floor office-fitting plant flowers and gave me the urgent assignment at the last minute... The flowers aren't really pretty.... I feel like being a monk by getting stuck here ~~I don't have any sexually coonfused monks beside me here though.....~~ Shift it back.... You see I don't like working at night here. There are some people who possibly died but are not in heaven yet... they stroll and distract my attention some time. One of them is a 60ish looking gentleman. I sometimes see him when I take a break. He keeps knocking the window. I don't know what his story is as I am not really good at listening to their stories. I pretend not to hear any of what they have to say... If I get paid for it, I might be able to. :P Anyway, I think I did something bad to him today. I really had to make number 2 so I went into the bathroom. On my way there, he wanted to speak to me but I ignored this person/ghost. He followed me and kept knocking the bathroom stall door "LOUDLY" by saying "I am thirsty". It wasn't a peaceful number 2 time... My point for today is be nice to people as much as you can. :-) and watch your back at a very late night when you have to go to the bathroom. I have this weird handprint possibly with blood on my back even though I wasn't bleeding. I didn't have it when I went to the bathroom. But my coworker found it... Oh no... creepy late night. On the bright side, I am glad it's not one of my faovirte shirts... I would have been so sad if it was. I sound like a crazy person here... I should get back to work... you have a fantabulous weekend! I will try later when I get out of here!

Fudged Day

By Shigeki on October 6, 2005 10:37 PM | 11 Comments

I say "Fudge you!" or "What a mother Fudger you are!" every once in a while instead of saying the obvious. Anyway, things go not great every once in a while. I totally understand it's a part of the design which makes our lives more interesting/ miserable/ worth living. Today was that. First of all, my request to resign voluntarily from the current position was totally declined. However since this bonus resignation plan was dropped, I can get better prepared for what's next. I will take my time to get well prepared for my original plan instead of this dreamy bonus plan B. Second of all, I got my results back for the blood thingy I had to get over with. It turns out I don't have HIV but got some STD (I am not going to say which) that can be treated with antibiotics. The test result wasn't embarrassing at all. How I had to say to a doctor about how I got it was the embarrassing part. But she was totally cool with my story while the nurse near her wasn't.... The photo is the cool looking building near the clinic.. Third of all, I see some of you guys keep saying "photos!". I am not gonna at the moment but I assure you I will post what I look like in the future. I have a legitimate reason why I don't and it's a Japanese thingy. Fourth of all, I accidentaly sent a voice mail message to all the employees when I had to make an urget announcement. All I did there was sneeze...... and the voice message was like "This is the message from Shigeki extention 0000." (by the system prompt's robot kind of voice) Achoo! "end of the message"..... On the bright side, I read somewhere that the impact you could feel from sneezing is the closest thing you could actually feel during an orgasm. :-) It was damn good! You have a great Thursday! don't let there be your fudged day!

Turning autumn

By Shigeki on October 5, 2005 9:25 PM | 9 Comments

I had three hour sleep this morning and had to come back to work. Before I did, I had extra time so I thought I'd change my wardrobe to autumn as the season is turning into it. No more hot summer. I am kinda relieved but can't wear a sleeveless shirt any more except at the gym but that's quite alright. Autumn is the perfect season to cuddle someone but as you already know, I don't have someone to cuddle with (wow, that sounds so relationship oriented.). That's quite alright. Autumn is also the season for the clothes... something darker like this jacket. This jacket was presented by my ex a year ago. Believe it or not, he made this from scratch. This is one of my favorite autumn jackets still. Well, it might be too warm to wear this yet but the perfect weather will come soon. Some people try to do the major cleaning immediately after the break-ups to get rid of stuff that reminds them of the relationship they had. Some (I said "some") queers probably do so by singing " I will survive by Gloria Gaynor" dramatically as if they are the most important people to get others' attention for the sympathy at the very moment. But I didn't get rid of this jacket. I didn't sing the cliche song right after the break up, either. Wow, I must have grown up.... To be honest, I like this pretty jacket very much. Ergo, this is still my favorite autumn one. It reminds me of things but that's alright. It keeps me warm, stylish (in my own imaginary way), and comfy anyway. I can't wait the full deep nice autumn coming! It'd be perfect to have someone to cuddle with in the park, but I am okay being alone this time. Happy Autumn, people! ughh.. going back to work.

Geeky eyes

By Shigeki on October 4, 2005 8:05 PM | 11 Comments

I am a computer geek. You already know that. But it doesn't mean I enjoy computers like installing some weird equipments or anything in my private life. As a matter of fact, I am a computer geek who hates computers. I happen to be a geek at work but it doesn't mean I live geeky. (well, I might without noticing it) Computer geeks are supposed to wear pebble-lensed glasses. That's very prejudice. A french language school teacher in Paris when I was taking classes there once said to me "Japanese tourists wear glasses and always take photos. Why do you not wear glasses?" Fudge her!!! I don't wear glasses or contact lenses. I don't look geeky outside. I hide it very well as if I am a normal person. That's right! I am not out. I am in a very dark geeky closet. Luckily, my eyesight is actually pretty good. 2.0 for both eyes meaning.... 20/10 in English. 6/3 in Europe? I forgot.... I was always told by my parents if I read things in darkness, my eyesight would get worse, and I would have to wear glasses eventually. Well, I looked at a lot of naked guys in dirty magazines in bed by holding a flashlight in my left hand when I was a junior high student. ~~I am right handed so you know. :-)~~ But my eyesight never went worse.... Anyway, this is my right eye at 7:00p.m. today. I am tired. Eye Redness... Please fire me. I will know the result of my early retirement program sometime by the end of this month. I am begging! Anyway I hope you have a fantabulous Tuesday! Going back to work sadly..... ta-ta-!

Monday Monday...

By Shigeki on October 3, 2005 8:56 PM | 8 Comments

Monday Monday, so good to me,
Monday Monday, it was all I hoped it would be....
Not really... I have no idea when I will have a day off next since it's officially October. huh... I signed up for an early retirement program because my company has to fire a lot of people. They give us this huge bonus package if you agree to resign voluntarily. I am very very hoping my supervisor will approve my request. Please... fire me!!!! I wanna get canned so badly so I can get extra money and move on. Anyway, it's another Monday... Gentlemen, do you get a boner at work without your intention? I didn't think about anything naughty but it kept happening this morning. I got huge ones three times at least. I had to take my tucked shirt out to hide it. The director came into my office but I really couldn't stand up. I had to act like I got sudden stomachache when I had to stand up. I felt like being a high school boy again... FYI, I didn't go to the restroom immediately to take care of that.... :P Anyway, the first business day of the month is a big greasy lunch day for me. I allow myself to have a greasy unhealthy thingy for lunch twice a month. I got a vegetable burger with fries (chips). It tasted okay if I put a lot of mustard and ketchup. I shouldn't have ordered this though. The meat part made out of Tofu really really sucked..... Oh, on a different note, how can you live with a 52% personal income tax? It seems so impossible for me..... Mine is about 15%..... Anyway, I have to get back to work. You have a pleasant Monday!

artistic vs mathematic

By Shigeki on October 2, 2005 7:42 AM | 6 Comments

Michael from Vancouver, Canada, who is by the way a graphic artist, suggested me something I haven't really thought about. To study "art". According to him, I have some creative qualiity in me. I don't see it that much but he does. All I did art in my life was when I studied a BFA program for about 2 terms. I changed my major to Biochemistry after that. Thoughts come and go, and I admit I have interest in doing something artistic. I have never thought I'd want to do this more seriously. I hear being creative is difficult sometimes. I can easily imagine how hard it can be. I haven't really come to the conclusion yet. The scariest thing of all is change a career path at the age of 30. Well, make it 31. My IT field is very promising and I have never thought of being creative as my job requires me to be mathematic instead. I like being mathematic actually. I can be a big failure if I decide to do something artistic. But on the other hand, I want to explorer how articstic I can be. It's such a juxtaposition. I am not going to decide to conclude it right away. I have never been thinking about my life plan adjustment this much. But I currrently am. I will try to see if I can create any portfolio but if it doesn't turn out good, I'd probably give up on the idea of being artistic. I will know... I will sleep on it. It's giving me headache but I am excited oddly at the same time. I drew this hand quickly to calm myself down while thinking about odd things...... Going to church. Happy Sunday everybody!

No Wrinkles

By Shigeki on October 1, 2005 9:51 PM | 29 Comments

I got back home at 10 in the morning (!!!) because of too many assignments I had to deal with at work. yeah, I know it's crazy but that's alright. I am doing this by my choice and this doesn't last forever. Anyway, I took a nap and went shopping for groceries. Then, I bought a nice clothes iron because the old one gave up on me awhile ago. The new one is cordless. It's supposed to be very good according to the sales guy. The thing is that I seriously hate ironing anything. I am not good at doing the ironing. Really. So I used to go to this dry cleaning place and let them do my clothes instead. However, I decided to be more budget concious since I spent too much money on the vacation. The cordless part would make me feel easier than it should be.... I hope... I hope there is a class for Ironinng 101 or something. Is there? 'd better be good at this. I mean it would be so kewl if I could iron my work shirts quickly and brilliantly with just a smile. However, if I do it now, it takes me more than 30 minutes to get things done with this stressful wrinkles on my face..... I need to be better at it to be a good husband.... I am sure it will take awhile..... Wish me luck! Have a briilliant weekend, guys!

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